| Birthday blahs |
[Nov. 1st, 2009|12:50 pm] |
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ARGH. SO, my birthday is tomorrow. 29. ICK! I don't want to think about this being the last year of my 20s!! When did that happen??? I'm sitting here home alone which doesn't help.. the parents and sister were here this weekend and we had a GREAT time.. except my dad being a jerk for a bit but par for the course there. Then I had to watch them leave. I'm also realizing I am making friends here in Benson, which shocks me! But still.. with Vince gone I feel really alone. Depressed, even! I hope that's not a sign that I'm a needy retard!! Eh, if it is, so be it, I guess. I do know that I can still function, because I've had to before, but I wonder for how long I'd be able to do so. I had a TERRIBLE nightmare a while back that Vince didn't come home from a trip once. Then it got me wondering what would I do if that really happened?? GOD I don't even want to think about it! Would my life be over? Or would I be able to pick up the pieces eventually and move on. YIKES! I think this came from talking life insurance and living wills recently. I don't like that subject but it's the responsible thing to do. Anyways sorry for the stream of consciousness! It's what I do when I'm left to my thoughts. |
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